I never really thought much of the 5th month.
In reality, if asked, I would say that I loved December for Christmas and September for the Indian Summers. The months of summer will always make me smile as I head to the beaches and February because of my birthday,ranks near the top for no other reason than the cupcakes and presents.
May, although a nice month, didn’t touch my radar. Not in any meaningful way.
But thinking back there have been life changing things that touched my life in this Merry Month.
I finally graduated from college in May.
I started In Vitro and consequently got pregnant with my sons in May.
We christened Giovanni and Jacob as I celebrated my first (long awaited) Mother’s Day in May.
and then this year happened…
…It started with Listen to Your Mother, the Sunday that will be etched on my heart for all time now, the 5 minutes of reading my own writing on a Stage in NYC with the men and women who are now a part of my history.
…Then a beautiful Mother’s Day surrounded by the hugs and admiration of my beautiful niece as she gets ready to graduate and the sound of her saying, “I will never be able to thank you for marrying Aunt Kirsten Uncle John, I love her so much”.
…Next a trip to Philly and my heart bursting open with the friendships I made at Bloggy Boot Camp. I felt like I had come home, I smiled and giggled and listened and learned. It was so much more than a conference, it was an oasis for the writer, blogger, friend and woman in me.
…A Memorial Day weekend that was perfect in so many ways I almost can’t explain it. But as I swam in Barnegat Bay and watched my sons toss away their fears and jump in the water alongside me, I felt a peace and contentment I had been lacking. I turned my face to the sun, I ignored my blog and I smiled.
This year has been such an amazing time for me, doors opening, words spilling, friends I get to hug IN PERSON and look in the eyes.
For the first time in almost 8 years I feel like my life is finally opening up again. I wasn’t worried about infertility or fibromyalgia, I wasn’t counting on a migraine as I accepted the third drink from my brother at the bar( I haven’t had any alcohol in 8 years) and I sang right along with the lead singer of the band who was flirting with my sister in law.
Even my weight is shifting and I feel beautiful and confidant as I slip into pants that haven’t fit in years. My heart feels lighter and now that the boys are older, Idon’t have any guilt about going to dinner with my girlfriends, having a weekend away, taking time to indulge myself.
I am open to new opportunities and dare I say it, I am happier than I’ve been in a long long time.
Just like this Month, I feel ripe with possibility, my soil feels ready for planting and I am reaching up to the sky, willing to endure the rain, if the sun is promised.
If I could tell you how I feel, it’s like when you fall in love. That heady rush of emotions where you don’t want to eat or sleep , you just want to live in your skin that tingles. Like a crush, I am falling head over heels in love with my life again.
Robert Frost wrote that “Nothing Gold Can Stay” and so I am holding tight to the rest of this month, these last 2 days where I can believe in Magic and Serendipity.
If nothing good can last, I’d like to enjoy the moments I have left in this Merry Ole Month of May and be thankful for the light they brought me.
But June? If you’re listening, I wouldn’t mind a few more weeks (or months) of this.
Quietly hoping that the rest of this year has even more beautiful surprises in store for me.
linking up with my beautiful friend Shell this week. You should too, it’s good for your soul!
It sounds like such a wonderful month for you. I hope this joy continues!
if I get to meet /hug you this year, honestly I might make 2012 the BEST YEAR ever.
Your May sounds wonderful and I am so happy that I was a small part of it! I am hoping that June will bring me that feeling of falling in love. May has had way too many things on our calendar and not enough time to enjoy them. I am secretly counting down the days until my girls are out of school and we get to hang out. When I get to see them hang out and have fun playing in their pjs and not rushing for a school bus, that is when things fall into place for me.
I hope your June is just as wonderful! xo!!
I hope the rest of the year is as magical for you as May has been
May has always seemed like a month of starts and stops to me. This year is no different. Even if all of my stops and starts have been mental.
What a really wonderful month you have had!
You do look great and it sounds like May is a simply amazing month for you! My guess is that June will only get better!
LOL…honestly having an amazing May has been good enough…June can take a break and let someone else (YOU..) have a magical month. I just wanted to pour our my heart about how incredible I feel right now in this moment.
Great post!!! Glad to hear so many good things are going on for you!!! I’m sure you can keep up the momentum for June. I’m so sorry to hear after the fact about the Bloggy Boot Camp in Philly. I could have met so many of my favorite bloggers close to home and I missed it. Darn!
Here’s to keeping fingers and toes crossed that things will continue to go well and stay bright for you. Your joy de vivre really shines through here and I was smiling along with you. xo!
This was a beautiful read. Im so glad that you count so many blessings in previous Mays, and THIS May has been amazing for you!! Im immensely proud of you and excited for you, and hope that the joys and blessings continue for a very long time!
this comment means so much to me Frelle, I am actually weepy just reading it. I count you among the blessings this year has brought me…thank goodness for YOU.
MAY the rest of your year blossom like spring! MAY we meet again soon because as satisfying and rewarding as the blogosphere is, ain’t nothing like the real thing, baby! And when I do see you, MAY I give you a big squeeze??
Listen, Lady of my heart…if YOU don’t squeeze me when you see me I’m going to pout.
I miss you very much, I can’t wait for our reunion so I can just talk/chat with you.
My girl crush! xo
Sounds like it has been an amazing month for you! I hope that this continues and your heart remains full the rest of the year.
Also? Part of June has to be great – you’ll be seeing me. Again! xo
YES, I get to see you in another week…and I so excited about that. I can’t wait to hold baby either, I’m be a pest you know? LOL
having your friendship come into my life is part of the happiness that spilled over into May, I’m so glad to have you as my friend.
glad you are having such an amazing month! I want to know your secret for fitting into those pants from years gone by!
HI there
so glad to see you here, love when you visit. I am just happy that May has been so good. I can smile so easily.
and the pants, the weight loss, I have no idea. I am not sleeping or eating….and I feel GOOD. I don’t have an answer, but in this moment I don’t want one.
thank you for coming over to say HI.
This post is so inspiring! By the end of it, I was yelling, “Me, too! I want that too!” And a quote from Robert Frost that I love and first read in the book, The Outsiders. LOVE! Your May sounds like a little slice of Heaven. Here’s hoping your June will be just as good!
I remember reading it in the Outsiders too, I loved that book. I’m not counting on June, just asking it to be kind..it doesn’ have to be amazing. Thank you for coming over to read, that means SO much to me.
I’m so happy you’re happy Kir. Because if anyone deserves it, it’s you. You bring so much joy to others, you deserve just as much, if not more. I’m so grateful for your love and friendship. xo
Honestly, I’ll take one more day. I know nothing good can stay, but I have YOU as a friend and this place to share my thoughts…I feel good and happy, that’s enough for now.
Love you darlin.
May is a good month and I’m glad that it treated you so well.
well as long as we’re still friends, it’s a good month no matter what
xoxo
So very much magical joy! Love!
hey sweet stuff are you coming to BLOGHER?? because I really really really need a GALIT hug.
xo
My soil feels ready for planting…
oh I am so proud and happy for you at the same time.
If I could I’d do a silly dance around my kitchen in my pj’s for you
Love you mucho xoox
have I told you today (or recently) how much I ADORE YOU? Honestly, let’s do that silly dance together!!!!! I just want to hug your face off.
xoxoo
Good things are happening and you so deserve them. You’re always so encouraging with your radiant smile. How could the sun not shine on you?
OH Rach, you brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much my friend. Truly, you are one of the sunshines of my life.